i hate you!!!

i hav been bloggin but wher the hell my entries went.shit....everything juz bad. i m stressed!!! shitty decision and enough of forcing me to make a choice. i hate hate to stay alive. give a break...maybe i can die for lik a few hours to feel wad is dyin all bout. den i tink i would make a better decision of the steps in life. everything juz went berserk...my head...filled with things tat are redundant and stupid. juz lik how stupid i m. i trust no one and not even myself.