pWover

ha...finally,the last lap.wads wrong with me....i was tired after the presentation...pekcek again.i know u
i understand
i heard
'y so pek cek......
sorry
i affect ur mood again.
in the LT i was tense, afraid..my heart beat faster than ever..really...it took me long before i could talk.
it seems i myself are not sure...i always tink that i m wrong
bad.
but at times izzit my fault??
i hav to ask...but there is no ans.so confusin!!! i juz hope that i dun affect the ppl tat would be affected tat much.i m saddened to see pek cek look...i juz feel the urge to entertain..but it seems hard nowadays.
never will we know that others will feel sad, when we are sad too.-anonymous

pek cek look to a silent bye<3

apri is gettin old....and no one wants.unlik before, now he talks only irritate ppl. hm....i hav been always lik that.sickenin! must be ppl exploitin me. hahahaha....i did not wrote down the wrong names......u all are my best frens=) sushi!sushi! i lurve u all and will miss u all too.......sam is true..i can't survive without him haha.....i m reluctant to go back...yet i will feel happy to be back.i know i will lose alot.time does not permit, there is more i could have done. to CONVINCE!!!

that one, that one

watchin movie is great....the that one, that one sorry lahh treat you nachos next time;) den the cheese will make u fat-.- that one ahh...make me broke lahhh.....should not hav paid back by treatin you todae. i m broke now !!!! haiz.....life without money sux. if i were to be rich haha....i tink i can make a lot of ppl happy though money is not everything. but money can do alot of things to satisfy ppls needs and wants. i want, i want....i m sure we dun need anymore but want more......i dun know i feel warmth seein others smile... i lurve smiles from ppl... do smile more haha lik this =)=)=)=)=)=)=)...i think human are sweet creatures too.....we feel lik others neve feel before. to get angry and to hate sometimes is a way of showin how much importance a person is to you, i suppose.cauz we wun bother much about those that we care less.......and we hate them less too....definitely we love them less hahahaha. i lurves my friends=)) apri will try his best to make u all happy. Actually i hav been...i suppose is not my best. give me time i will try okk haha...acha acha faidi.

A moment in time

band-it was great i think. Many people attended it. I lurves the chocolates and roses=) thanx to all my friends who came for it and those who stays at home to enjoy family's love thanx too for not coming haha=p. Bald rose look nice i suppose.....and dropping petals as well.Their fragrance...hm....hm....i went to supper with my friends at my fav newton food centre haha. I was so tired, i slept at 2 plus to prepare for my op today and need to wake up early to do my i n r too. thanx benny for all his help...hopefully he is not that pissed off with me. though i m=P....bloody hell i n r!!!!! thanx to him too for helping me sell my band tickets. Selling tickets sux lah.....see 1st...dun noe whether got time is the responses i got. Then i knew, ppl are not that interested.But still i go and bug them....neve giv up haha=) definitely it was enjoyable to see an LT full of enthu ppls...scream and scream and scream. I think i enjoyed this concert best. To me i prefer band-it than etude and i think i play better too hahaha=) being able to perform is the greatest satisfaction a band player can get...the feelin of being able to enjoy urself on stage and entertain others. life is lik a performance on stage...i agree. Only if we can entertain others and meke ourself memorable...bein an actors is good either, however we hav to ensure that we are convincing enough.... i think all of us can act well, we just don't realise it. There is definitely a time where we got to really act. So what role should we choose? i wonder.....best actors are capable of acting any role, so does that make us the best in life?

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i feel hopeless. i shop and eat alot yesterday. getting fat-.- i enjoy goin out for supper with my housemates. i taught them ss too haha...and they decide to buy band tickets from me=) so kind of them. hm life is full of up and down....sometimes i m still wondering if i m really happy. to think bout it, it seems that it is hard to be as happy as before......but happy for the sake of being happy. going out for not getting bored at home. i hate this. i don't know.... i m rather confused. i would not want to disappoint the ppl around me. i feel weird this time....i miss=(

things change and i seem to change too...i m afraid, afraid of changes....i know i would not be the same.

haha

benny can tell you can tok alot jus lik me haha.

i dun tok alot one lor....depend on whom i tok too haha. sometimes i tink i irritate ppl cause i tok too much and bug them. wah lao...i tink tokin is gd. dun understand y some ppl juz kept quiet and can survive for long. its gd to hear sound from others....especially ur friends=) not this =P listenin makes me happy=)=)

but definitely not gd to be an amplifier=p=p....i should stuck more things to horn hahahahaha to revenge=p=p

...

me
i don't
i won't
there is always a limit
it depends on who
others
i care
i bother
wrong wrong wrong
i don't know
i pitied
pitied myself
i cried
not for myself
yes for me
pathetic life can be
reminiscing the past
memories
all history
never play back
longer longer and longer
i waited
rotten
healed
yet different
i ask
ask
askin for me
avoid avoid and avoid
great solution?
i wonder
if there is any
no solution
but outcome
outcome
that can never be guessed
i m thinkin
longer and longer again
careful this time with my thought
sleepin is best
yes, i slp to dream for better tml
i don't
nightmare instead
i become unconscious
i question my existance
i died?
i live?
no i don't
there are others around me
i m afraid
afraid of all of them
the good bad or worst
they seem the same
i fake
i don't
confused
but to suffer alone
no one
no one
i suspect
you suspect
everyone suspects
suspicion everywhere
who is right
who is wrong
till then it don't matter
as my heart said so
it has its say
but i forced it to say
guilty
no i don't
but to leave me alone
unhurt.
it hurts it hurts
it screams for help
who cares
i do
i do
i do
stay away
get lost
does not help
it remains till it stops beatin
then i hav no say
no say
but others start to say
out there
i look
i see no one
feel no one
alone
i shall cry in despair
my life full of regrets
uncertainties
and confusions
u hear me
no never will
i got nothin to say
words don't express

eat shop buy watch sleep

everything is over.....left idiotic OP...pw sux lah. hm hm....out almost whole dae.i m luvin it haha.life of no skul...no worries...band is great too=) go go go for band-it !!! haha now i am with my best friend and i love him very much. tats wad he say...so thick skin. hm hm...goin shoppin with him make me go broke. he dun even know how to become a smart customer lik me hahahahahaahahahhaha..........that y i can't bargain much haiz. but is he is great too. he is nice and kind and friendly person...helpful...sickenin...his face is goin red. he laugh lik mad!!! i m forced to eat subway. i hate bread lah. wad a nice fren i hav.