droplet of traces

SHENG i luv you haha!!!
i went to sheng de houz to take a disc that he burned for me tat is to be installed on my recently bought laptop.how ar...i dun really know how to make gd use of the comp.ar..is lik wastin money.medical check up again tml...and i m sleepin so late=_=!! 3 or 4years in switzerland, i m goin to misss alot of ppl, especially ppl lik sheng.though we dun really meet up quite frequently, he seems to be always very dependable haha,so loyal man.luv him so much ahhaa.thanx for his company despite the rainy weather.i really appreciate the big and little things tat he hav done for me,his sincerity and evrything bout him...ahhh shengde thanx alot really thank you!!!...ur old classmate cum lovin fren=))

home-sick

i want to get back to indo fast.arghhh...i woke up late todae even though i made an appointment to visit the doctor at 10.teo clinic for children, my last visit there was lik 7 years ago.haha...the doctor actually gave me 3 vaccines,which i dun know wad are they.he was cranky and old enough to grumble bout me rushin him to fill up my form for the medical check up.darn...he lectured me for bein lik a baby...ohhhh...i wish i am he probably neve realise that i m others' baby haha.i lik babies , they are juz as cute and not as innocent as me haha.wahh lao,indeed i tried to rush him, but still he needs me to go back again on wed.there goes my extra 3 days in bintan.huh, i tink adults are funny creatures.i dun see myself as adult.and i dun exactly know who are adults.i was queeuin up for taxi..unfortunately i queeued on the wrong line which was the longest initially, until the guard insisted that we need to requeue...ahhhh...i thought i was smart.this is not the only stupid things that i did.a few days ago...i took the wrong mrt line for the 1st time in my life..sosososo STUPID! hiu fung would be happy to hear tat=Pahh..i m so stressed again..and so sleppy dun know why.watchin korean drama made me cry..my cute little baby inside may die anytime huhhhh.i aso watched another drama this sat..wahh i lik the gal alottttt,she is so crazily pretty haha and of course there is aso my fav actor,one cute hunk haha.i admire metrosexuals...their dress sense and attitude..wahhh...korean guys can dress pretty well unlik spore star who might not even change their clothes frequently when they are actin.hm....i m wanderin as if time doesnt flyand there is no direction...i m givin myself amonth time to look for my compass.yes haha faidi!!! live life to the fullest?a half-filed drink seem to serve better.

dreams of hope

i m not feelin really well today...i tink is due to the lack of slp. clubbin at zouk was again an 'eye openin' experience. but the drinks were so ex....a tiny cup of dun know wad cost lik 10 plus......headache. i wanna slp!
i wanna get high! AGAIN.

we are different

i m juz so pissed with my father for quite some time. haiz...it turn out more to be a disappointment than anger. he simply does not know me well. always, lik wad most elderly would tink...we youngsters do things in a sloppy way. i m not! i know him too well, far beyond his understanding of me. i learnt tat silent works best, there is no point argueing when both of us is stubborn in our own way. indeed, he did feel a little apologetic, gd for me. i bear no grudges...but simply hope to get away from tat akward situation. it juz dun feel rite i guess. family, are they simply another beings tat happen to bump closer to us...or there are exceptional spritual thingin tat bind us as one. i believe in inheritance...the way of life, our behaviours...i started to see myself behavin lik either my mum or dad. however, i will definitely reflect upon my own behaviour tat seems equivalent to theirs. parents are always rite? i dun tink so. when you are young, our innocent minds form tat illusion, as we grow up the perfection we hold for them slowly tear away...it hurts but it is better than to lead a deluding life.but, still no matter wad...my parents are great=ME hee

dreams of hope

my agent phoned me that my acceptance letter to les roches has came.hm...tml i m goin to see what it looks like.haiz...i hav been stayin at home for past 2 days..i m so broke to go anywhere.hav to take money again=(luckily there is korean drama to keep me away from my sianness hahaha.i m watchin wonderful life...not pretty new though, my sis told me tat it was nice to watch.hm...i was quite satisfied these 2 days at home...i hav been exercisin hehe.of course joggin was so tirin...i wanna faint...maybe i need to jog more.my arm was kind of injured these few days...but not today,ha...i woke up feeling good tat i dun hav to stuggle to try to pull up the dumbell.hm...hope my exercise routine will last long...always i will juz stop it as and when i lik...bad bad bad.huh....3 more days to go to meet my parents, they are coming to assist me in the application...thanx godness or i bet i may juz stay in spore for good.

GLORIA and SAMUEL bdae is tomorrow!!! HAPPY BDAE TO TWO OF THEM...MAY SAMUEL HAV HIS GRAND PIANO SOON AND MAY MISS PRAWN LEE CONTINUE TO STAY CRAZY AND CHEERFUL.HAPPY BDAE HAPPY BDAE!!!!!!!!....samuel remember to get me rings from thailand.remember 'manly' haha

wahhhh...actually i kind of enjoy clubbing.haha i lik the loud music and the wawa mood there haha.i tink anyone could get high easily and free themselves.yes... i should go to club more often in the future until i m sian of it. damn damn damn...aaaarrr i was tinkin again if i should have signed for the july intake.too late even if i want to stay in spore now.my mum was telling me to juz go for it.i was so confused and troubled...wadeva it is, i tink i could not reach my final decision, but i pretended evrything will go as smoothly as she thought, hopefuly tat could have comforted her.she will miss me dearly as i would have.tell you wad, i m gonna miss stayin in spore.i miss how childish when i first came, i will miss how i did so well in school hehe, and of course i will have to miss how cute to experience love,friendship, yes not forgettin to miss my wahhh TAf club session,ccas,different from clubbin though.haha lastly i will miss my jc life.muach muach muach...i survived haha and struggled through it waha.capable indeed.jc life was the lowest and highest point of my life up till now.wah...so scary rite, is lik a roller coaster ride....i felt my heart beat so fast at some time and it almost died down at another point of time.life experiences hav neither substitutes nor complement.no firm would charge any price for an exchange, public goods, merit or demerit goods?it depends on the externalities..good or bad....i hope my life experiences would not hav cause a divergence between social cost and tat of my private cost.divergance may be good...if tat of private cost is higher...would anyone accept it?who is so stupid rite...tats y i tink market failure exists.not because it arises from bad effects of consumption or production but rather a social dilemma tat comes from within.thanx to econs.

i hate you!!!

i hav been bloggin but wher the hell my entries went.shit....everything juz bad. i m stressed!!! shitty decision and enough of forcing me to make a choice. i hate hate to stay alive. give a break...maybe i can die for lik a few hours to feel wad is dyin all bout. den i tink i would make a better decision of the steps in life. everything juz went berserk...my head...filled with things tat are redundant and stupid. juz lik how stupid i m. i trust no one and not even myself.